The Jellyfish

I tend to live in waves of emotions. 
There are days and weeks where
I feel great about myself…
Where I believe anything is possible… 
Where life feels full of possibilities
and hope. 

And then comes the time of doubts…
Where all of a sudden all my certainties
feel challenged. Where I’m not sure anymore. 
Where the tide keeps pulling me
further and further into the ocean
of loneliness and confusion. 

Yes, there have definitely been times when 
I have judged myself for feeling this way. 
When I judged my emotions. 

But now I’ve come to realise
that going through these waves…
Going through the ups and the downs… 
Is nature’s way of propelling me forward. 

In moments of these I think of a jellyfish 
swimming in the ocean. 
Expanding and contracting…
Again and again. 
Without doubts and self-judgement. 

And these waves of emotions are just that - 
Expansions and Contractions… 
Moving me forward. 

I’ve come to understand that
in every contraction I am actually
learning something new about myself. 

And as soon as I do, 
I am ready to move forward again. 

With love,
Elina Janevica

Imagery / Golden hour by the sea / Photo by Liene Pētersone